Slow Fade

I started thinking abou this as I was picking through the pile of crap that stands between me and the front door. I don't want to get into it. It's gross and messy. THere are at least three containers of things hat were dragged in from the car. Somewhere thrown into that mix is my work bag, and if I've made the mistake of going tot he store and it's not perishable those bags are thrown in there somewhere too. Shoved into the back of that mess and up against the wall is the cat litter box and athe holder of TV trays, not to mention the hula hoop and the contents of the closet. It's a mess did I mention that? Did I mention it's been that way a while. Long enough that I should have done something by now. But instead it just keeps growing. An ever big mound of junk between me and the door.

I spoke with my aunt a few days ago and she started on the path of what was wrong with her. Lack of balance in life and lack of balance with food and lack of balance in particular. She said without hesitation I feel like if i were closer to God it wouldn't be so. I can see her point. I do remember and know from the times in my life when I'm most focused on him and most diligent that the other stuff just falls into place. It's still work but some how with my priorities all focused on him and everything else just being sorted it works out better for me.

This lead me to thinking about the fruit of the spirit (Gal 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.)

The one that is reaching out to me is obviously the self control. And I wonder if what I'm thinking is taht not so much as it was told to me things to look for in a believer but what happens when you hand it all over and participate in the ride that God's offering.

What I guess I mean is not so much the moving forward and saying, "Yeah I'm with you." but the active actually movng with him and with purpose. This is what I'm thinking and what I'm pledging to myself. (Again, yes I know how far behind I've been falling in my promises before, but it is a journey isn't it? and unfortunately my journey thus far has been more of an insane one step forward thirty steps in a backward circle dance. SOmething to see, but not necessarily something to be proud of.) So yeah moving forward, purposefully.